This website is an experiment to see if expressing myself on the world-wide web will help me deal with the break-up with my ex girlfriend. It has been over a year now and I’m unable to move on and basically can’t stop drawing her. Our separation is due to her desire to have children, and I don’t. The tragedy is that we wasted five years together, ‘ignorance is bliss’, all the while, one of us thinking we could change the other’s mind if push came to shove………it didn’t happen as we’re both too stubborn. I also have Asperger’s syndrome so procreation is something I couldn’t be less interested in.
It frustrates me to imagine that her need for a child means that I wasn’t enough for her, and never would be. She was enough for me, I needed nothing else. I feel like an alien most of the time, this “human” yearning to duplicate one’s self, to populate one’s planet is a mind-set I just don’t understand. Even though our decision to split was more or less mutual, It’s still left a bitter taste and I’m full of resentment today.
My ex who I’m referring to as ‘Brigitte Ballache’ on this site, had lots of people on hand, friends, family etc to support her throughout the break-up, so she’s almost certainly handling/has handled it better than me. I’ve had nobody for moral support, felt generally quite isolated and have genuine difficulty in dealing with my emotions. This artwork is my attempt at resolving the issue, or at the very least, a slight mockery of my own life choices.
Ps. Some or all of the drawings on this site are pretty messed up, mais…. j’en ai plus rien à foutre !